Have you ever just woken up to another day to roll over, to hug your wife or husband, waking up to a reality check of that empty void there beside you once again another day? Do you ever ponder what you did for your wife or husband to leave like that, all of a sudden leaving you, feeling alone and feeling rejected? Do you ever just walk out the door trying hard to keep yourself together to walk away from the pain, that remains there by your husband or wife? Do you ever wonder will my wife or husband return home to me and our family? Do you ever ponder on the fact of things between the two of you, if they will get better or worst within the days or weeks or years yet to come?
My dear Fellow Christian Brothers & Sisters, I continuously, keep asking and pondering on these questions myself daily and some days I ponder so, much that I have dreams that lead into nightmares about my ex-husband that had me awakened to a reality check of panic. I kept pondering, what could I do to help me see the truth of past my first marriage & yet…during these processes of trying to help myself through the abuse of my past when I was married to my ex-husband, I wasn’t listening to what God kept telling and asking of me.
God kept saying to me ( even in times of me NOT wanting to listen to God, He continuously repeated these words), ‘ My dear daughter… your ex-husband’s happiness, love and all for you that you desire from him is NOT your place to fix or mend. That’s my place to care for his and your needs and desires for one another…so, please let go of him and let me take care of all those needs that needed to be tended to by your Heavenly Father.’
I let what I desired and needed the most from my future husband come, to God once I began to trust the Lord full wholeheartedly, and now…. I do think of the great moments of my future husband and me together and sure, I shed a few tears from the horror of my first marriage that was nothing but fear, hurt, betrayal, and abuse ….they are not of sadness of the regrets or the sorrow that I have endured while we have been separated…instead, they are tears of joy and happiness and love for my future husband that I prayed for, that the Almighty Lord…has replaced within my heart a feeling that is always overflowing for that I never had before over the years of my previous marriage to one that has me blessed by the Lord daily.
I treasure and cherish more so than ever before our great memories of us together, and within our marriage…no matter the hardship that we have faced from losing loved ones that were close to our hearts from, our own personal property or belongings, to move through the emotions of our past mistakes that catch up to us along the way, to our families having their own feuding between us that would cause, our own fights between the two of us, losing our own faith, hope, trust and so many others with each other that's when we would begin to believe Satan's lies, accusations about each other and think that we weren't meant to be but,…. God says, NO! God always brought us back together stronger than we were at the end of our separation together we became stronger in Him.
Sure, there are some days my uncertainties face me like giants but, I slaughter them with God’s Holy Words and with God's promises that He has given me my uncertainties do try to get the best of me within doubts of my mind, of my ex-husband ever returning or would he ever come to harm me again? I do have doubts and pain within each day that comes, like, when I feel like I'm failing or like my ex-husband is coming for me again to hurt me. God uses my current husband to remind me that I'm safe and no harm can come to me.
I kept trying to avoid the church that my family still attends, due to the fact of reminders that remain about my ex-husband ….
I am still trying to avoid the holidays that represent ****Christmas and New Year…due to the fact it represents my ex-husband's birthday (the 20th) and the new traditions we created together as a family. Plus, the other holiday's as well due to the memories that we shared of 10 years worth.
****( Note: No, I never avoid Christmas because, of the Lord, so, Please DO NOT think of this as such a thing that ever crossed my mind at all… I love my Lord and I always celebrate His birthday just, painful to put up a tree or buy gifts or be around those who bring back the memories of my ex-husband or the fact we are divorced…so, I try to avoid those painful moments by praying and avoiding the triggers, and doing other things for the holidays.)****
You are probably wondering, how I kept so strong during my abusive marriage with my ex-husband, right?
The answers to your question are simply the following facts that I am going to emphasize among you all that have helped me along the way….
1. ) God has NOT called me to give up on my future husband, marriage, or my vows that are to come before Him, my husband, family, and friends.
2. ) God HAS called me to wait upon Him for each day of the steps that He has before me and He will direct the steps that are before me daily and I must seek Him always faithfully for, God is my Light and my Savior and He has NEVER left my side nor has He ever broken a promise to me.
3. ) God has NOT given up on me nor will He ever give up on me nor forsake me during hard seasons that come…all I have to do is ASK, SEEK, KNOCK.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.”
- Matthew 7:7
4. ) God does NOT believe in Divorce…. Matter of fact, God HATES them so…..
Why would I as His beloved child ( Daughter) of His disappoint God by;
· -Giving up on God and my future husband to come that’s Godly ordained?
· - Divorcing my future husband to come that’s Godly ordained?
· - Breaking my vows to God & my future husband to come
that’s Godly ordained?
· - Not Asking, Not Seeking, Not Knocking for the Lord to help me to NOT quit, to NOT give up on Him and my husband, to NOT Keep my vows to Him and my future husband to come.
I always seek, ask and knock on the door for the strength to keep going through it all no matter, how hard it gets I am reminded daily that God is God over all things BIG and Small. He is God over my current husband, myself, and all the impossible things that I can NOT do…God can do them for me….!
Why would you as His beloved children
of His want to disappoint God?
Also, another answer to help you have the courage to strengthen yourself through this hard season around you without your husband or wife is this of what I do, which I believe should uplift you as well to is;
Continue to read God’s Holy Words and by listening to His calm voice (through songs, His Words, Daily Devotionals, Christian movies, through His disciples whom He sends our way as uplifting inspirational Christian Brothers or Sisters to encourage our fights within our battles on our knees. Our Christian Brothers & Sisters could also, fight with us on their own knees alongside us due to the season of pain, they too are facing with you (yes, we are all together in this battle for our husbands and wives), through visions of dreams that the Lord places upon our hearts and minds, through prayer to Him. I feel the Lord’s presence within each day that I live…I know without a doubt that God is real due to the fact I have met Him before in Heaven. I know for a fact that God will take care of my current husband God has for me, the current marriage God has before me. All my doubts and questions give to God because He holds the keys to all the answers that I continuously seek.
My fellow friends, if you are having relationship/ marriage problems give them ALL to the Lord NOT just today but, each day, lift up our husbands and wives. We need to also remember to include our children so, they won't go down this destructive path of their future marriage to come because, we all know marriage is hard and challenging, however, with a Christ-centered marriage your marriage will flourish with it full of God’s happiness, joy, love, peace, laughter, youthfulness, gentleness.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness,
goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
Against such things, there is no law.
-Galatians 5:22
Yes, we all need to pray for each other more than ever. Without prayer for each other…we all end up in a terrible mess…look around you…do you like where you are headed now? If we add prayer to our lives to our Heavenly Father…you will see (maybe not overnight) that things will start looking up from there just keep the faith, and focus on the Lord always.
You, probably, ponder how I know this right?
I am going to share with you a true story of an experience that I have encountered to allow my fellow readers to know how prayers really do work.
I will share with you all the Scriptures that inspire and encourage me through each day that I hope will inspire and encourage you through each day that seems to be hard for you;
I pray that you all, will be inspired, keep praying for your husband or wife, to keep the faith, hope, and trust, fully in the Lord during this hard harvest season within all of your marriages.
God has NOT
God will NOT
God never WILL
GIVE UP ON YOU> YOUR HUSBAND > WIFE> CHILDREN>MARRIAGE;
God has NOT
God will NOT
God never WILL
LEAVE YOU, FORSAKE YOU > YOUR HUSBAND > WIFE >CHILDREN;
God HAS
God WILL
God ALWAYS,
ENCOURAGES, INSPIRES, REBUILDS, DIRECTS, GUIDES, LOVES,
CARES, PROVIDES, HEALS, MENDS, GIVES ALL TO YOU, YOUR HUSBAND AND WIFE & FAMILY
That you will EVER NEED,
Please, reach out and take His hand. Take a deep breath and breath God’s Holy Words and feel His presence. Live for the Lord today & every day thereafter. Start fighting for your husband or wife, on your knees in prayer, before the Lord. Forgiveness leads to reconciliation in, the marriage first ( between the husband and wife) &then within the family (if children are present).
Remember,
God will NOT EVER give up on you
God never equipped quitters…
God equipped fighters for what,
He built a union of two people,
as husband and wife!
If you have questions or comments or would like to speak with me please email me. Thank you! God bless each of your marriages & individually.
Please pray for one other!
****( Ex-husband from 2 years ago (Aaron). Current husband (David (future husband to be at the time) (2021 to current).)
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